The grief-stricken widow of Crocodile Hunter Steve Irwin says she will one day have fun again.
In an interview in the latest edition of Woman's Day, a resilient Terri Irwin delves into the nightmare she has been living since the loss of her wildlife warrior husband.
He died after a stingray pierced his chest with its barb in a freak accident off the far north Queensland coast on September 4.
"Losing Steve for me is my personal horror, it's my nightmare and I'm living it," she tells the magazine, which has dubbed the interview a "world print exclusive".
"I'm just getting through an hour at a time right now. I'm still having trouble believing what happened."
However, she pledged with steely determination to bounce back from the tragedy, that has left her to raise their children Bindi, 8, and Bob, 2, alone.
"I'm not going to let it destroy me," she said.
"One day, I'm going to have fun again."
The interview features Terri doting on her late husband's three favourite elephants - Siam, Sabu and Bimbo - at the family's Australia Zoo wildlife park in Queensland.
"We're so connected ... they are like whales with legs, we just have a connection with whales and elephants," she said.
"There's this spirituality about standing next to an elephant that our zoo provides. "If you smell them, feed, touch, experience them, then you'll get them into your heart and and want to protect them - that's what Steve believed."
The interview follows TV interviews with the Nine Network's Ray Martin and American news queen Barbara Walters.
Steve and Terri met in 1991 when Terri, an American-born zoologist, visited a zoo where Steve was working.
They had a whirlwind romance and were engaged a few months later.
They married on June 4, 1992, and filmed their first documentary together while on honeymoon.
It later was used as the first episode of The Crocodile Hunter series which has made Steve Irwin famous around the world.
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